Lament

I realize now that the world I once lived in
was so much darker 
than I could ever begin to fathom...

The misery, the deception,
the inconceivable anguish needled into our hearts
until our true blue blood
bled so fast
it couldn't turn red. 

What a cold, hard thing
for a child to fear.

Cry, cry for the lost innocence.
Cry for the broken hearts.
Weep for a misplaced,
misconstrued sense of guilt
and self-loathing.

It was so dark.
I shivered so much.

Yet here I am, completely fine.
Untainted in the face of evil.
My face knows only sunshine
and my words only kindness and truth.
My bare feet dance in the green grass
and no man or beast dares disturb
my joyful requiem...

It makes me wonder...
am I the freak?
Am I...the evil?
If I walk away with nary a scratch?
What's wrong with me?

Stop. 
Am I really invincible?
The nightmares,
the cold sweats,
the uneasy beating of my heart
drumming in and out of rhythm
ready to burst for the pain I feel!

The invisible, horrifying truth.

Am I not so broken after all?

Is this what you see
when you look into my eyes?

For it was not just my body that was wounded,
nor just my heart.
My very soul was wounded. 

What do you see?

Do you see my darkness?

Nay, you see only the light that surrounds me.
And if you did not know me,
you would never have guessed.

My bare feet dance in the green grass.
There is nothing wrong with me.

Take your shoes off and dance with me.
I am ready to see the beauty that you do.

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